So, this is really hard to share but I thought It’s best not to keep everything bottled up as I’m quite a open and honest person usually (probably too much)
Recently I’ve been MIA on social media especially on my business pages or not responding to messages from clients, friends & family.
I’m been really struggling with my mental heath and it’s taking its toll, I have a lot going on in my life over the past 8 months or so and with not a lot of routine or independence recently which effects me greatly.
I’ve also not been eating great or exercising which is also a massive factor in to how I feel about myself, and at the moment it’s worse than ever and I can’t even look in a mirror.
My anxiety & depression has really suffered with lockdown plus with how my personal circumstances are at the moment and I’ve been in a really dark place, a place where my only thoughts were to remove myself permanently from this world and make everyone’s life happy again. I feel very alone, even though I’m not, I feel like I have no outlet to express how I feel or help me pull myself out of it all.
This is the lowest I’ve been for a very long time and my thoughts are taking over me but I’m working on making myself better as much as I can.
A positive, healthy & happy life is what makes me strong and not be in this horrible headspace, it’s what dragged me out of my Post Natal Depression so this is what I have to do for myself to ensure that I’m here and present especially for my Husband & Son.
I’m sure a lot of you are just rolling your eyes and don’t really care now thinking another depression story but I know a lot of people see me as this happy outgoing person most of the time, inside isn’t always the case and sometimes I wish I never woke up at all. I’m not using depression or anxiety as a reason to be who I am, I fight it to not be.
I’m sorry if this post disappoints or makes you feel upset but I’m hoping you’ll understand. So if you haven’t heard back from my or it’s taking a little longer don’t stress I will in time 💜
#mylifeisntperfect #staypositive #keepsmiling